This fast is bringing me so close to God and I love it! This morning as I woke up, I had a song in my heart, what a blessing! And, again this week, the Lord provided for me as He has done since my school closed 7 years ago. Before it closed, God gave me a word "Trust me" and I wondered how to do that. When it closed, I really wondered about it because I was left with a PhD but no job and I couldn't find a job.

I lost my $2 mil piece of property and my vehicle and my hard earned reputation. All I had was my house and the attendant payments. But,God has provided a miracle every single month! At first, it was difficult (no make that nearly impossible) to see that He would provide. I would panic and, at the last minute of course, He would provide a miracle for whatever bill I had (but never more than what I absolutely needed).

After about 5 years of this, I began to relax a little.

Now, 7 years later, I just say "Gosh, God, I can't wait to see how You will provide me with the money for this bill!" It's not that I'm just sitting around waiting for it to fall from heaven because I currently have 12 part time jobs; but my mindset is that God will provide.....and He does.

This week's provision came about when I had $90 of credit card bills to be paid (they raise the interest rate if you are late so it's important to pay on time) but I wasn't going to receive any paychecks from my various jobs until a small one at the end of the month from Sylvan and another small one on Nov 5th from City University and I was planning on combining those two to make my car payment.

But, when I went to my real estate office, she had a check for me from a rental that I had referred about 9 months ago (which I had totally forgotten about and I didn't know I would get a payment anyway). The amount was, of course, $100!

God is SO AMAZING! The ride is crazy scary but crazy fun too!